Yes, I have tried cleansing, cutting, bingeing,
purging, laughing, grieving, slutty fucking,
cardio, physio, detoxing protocols, supplements,
surgeries, sedatives, laxatives, antidepressants,
antipsychotics, hormones, opioids,
& yes turmeric, patience, positivity,
cbt, dbt, group, art & music therapy,
outpatient, inpatient, sometimes involuntary.
I have “wept & fasted, wept & prayed.”
Yes, I have tried to just get over it,
the fragility & pain, I have tried
to explain but O god I am tired
of the trial, of your questions,
of trying to be alive in your world.
Roxanna Bennett's second book, Unmeaningable, received the Raymond Souster Award and was shortlisted for the Trillium Book Award for Poetry.
